my life is awesomeeeee

Oh simple thing, where have you been?

2011-03-17T12:33:00.004+08:00

i want to see baby and sort things with him.

i realise tht we always argue when im stressed out. not tht he's not understanding enough but im just too unreasonable.

okayy anyway, enough of ranting. not tht we'll get any better like that.

its the 4th day we're not seeing each other edi and things felt so weird. we used to see each other every one or two days. but now its been 4 days edi. life sucks when you're a monash student

i had a reallll bad dream last night and i woke up feeling really scared even until now. and i remember tht i was soooo afraid in my dream. it felt so real. no, its not something about me or baby. its way scarier than that.

i was in a toilet all alone and there's mirrors everywhere. and i cant see my own reflection in the mirror but instead i saw a child's reflection and he's standing behind me. oh goshhh i woke up straight and was so afraid to continue sleeping.

im so afraid of ghost. and i have been having bad dreams like this for a few nights alrdy. you dont know anything. bcos you nvr show any interest in knowing anything about me.

Moving on

2010-12-21T13:54:00.005+08:00

hellooo people

i wont be blogging here any longer. im here now. http://shangshen-chaichyn.blogspot.com

relink please and thanks :D

i wont be deleting this blog cos its filled with all our memories. right from the moment we begin till we became stronger and all our mini arguments and how we work things out and also all out very very lovely moments. its all here. reading it back makes me smile and realise how silly we both are

hehe and now, starting on a new journey together, both of us will be blogging in the same blog and abandon our old ones.

how lovely! (:

Too many times

2010-12-11T02:13:00.001+08:00

bad bad bad day... blahhh. nothing is wrong but still, i have this hatred feeling inside me now at 2am. wat is wrong with me?!

sorry, just one word. no i dont see it as just a word. you may have underestimated wat i see in this word. anyone can always say sorry. but the real apology is when you hear the sadness in their voice and see the look in their eyes. and at tht moment, you realise tht they have hurt themselves just as much.

thts wat i want from you....do you see wat i see now?

Is this too much to ask for?

2010-12-11T01:30:00.003+08:00

exactly wat im facing right now. someone pls save me. i cant sleep. and im upset for no reason. i miss him =(

im so numb tht i dont even know wat to do now. all i want is just simplicities. i need someone to understand. someone who wont yell at me when im wrong. someone who will still show me love even when we're in the middle of an argument.

im sorry if i have said things tht offend you but i really need you to know wat i want and need, as a gf.

You know what?

2010-12-08T20:11:00.005+08:00

there live a stupid girl in her own world and she love lying next to the guy she loves and tells him all the crazy things that happened to her all day long and he'll listen to all her random utters of silliness patiently.

and sometimes, she would just rant and rant and complain bout nothing and hits him randomly just bcos she feels like it. yea, unreasonable, i know xD

and in the end of the day, he'll still love her as much as before and assure her thats she's different from the rest of the girls. thats the best part about being in a relationship. its not about the sex or how much money he spends on her.

its just... about how he can listen to her talk for hours and hours and hours and hours about stupid shit that doesnt matter. and they both know that they're meant to be together forever. thats just how lovely ShangShen Wong is... ahhh *hugssssss!*

eheheheh babyy, have i ever tell you how much i love talking about you?

Thats it.

2010-12-08T19:48:00.003+08:00

you know how it feels like to see some girls chasing slash dreaming slash fantisizing about getting guys with super good looks, loaded with cash or guys who are good in this or that or bla bla bla? its so shallow

well yea, i do set some standards when it comes to boyfriends, of course i wouldnt want someone who smokes or drink or look somewhat like a drug addict but definitely not in terms of financial or status background.

come to think of it, when you have finally find someone you really love, none of these actually matters. seriously. not that baby is not good but then my point here is that when you love someone, you love them for who they really are and not what they have or possess.

ooh well, smack me. but im weird. i dont go for rich guys, good looking guys, buff guys, super smart guys. but i prefer to go for someone who i can tell and share my stories with.

thats it. simplicity in a relationship. just us and nothing else matters (:

The power of love

2010-12-05T18:43:00.005+08:00

i have the urge to do this sometimes

but im too afraid of the pain, yea wat a loser

i miss my parents... i hate being alone at night.

the silence at home makes me think of my parents

i miss my dad.. i have not hug him for a long time. i miss being in his arms =(

im still a small girl at heart, i cant stand not being with my parents for 3 days. let alone for years, if i go overseas to study

thts why i dont wanna go anymore... i know i cant leave baby and my family and be alone there. i'll get really really depressed

especially baby.... im soo clingy to him. lol. he's my world. without him, i dont know wat else to do

blah, im feelin emo now

Wheeeeeeeeeeee

2010-12-01T19:06:00.002+08:00

i love making tht manja face when baby dont listen to me and he'll eventually give in to me cos im so fucking cute

okay slap me now xD

Do you remember?

2010-12-01T18:18:00.003+08:00

we can stay in bed doin this the whole day, seriously :D

being with baby makes my day better. really. no matter how shitty my day is, seeing him will magically make everything seem better

having him for the past two and a half weeks is like... ahhhh (: lol no, you ppl wont understand how it feels like

he's stupid and funny and very cartoon-ish. my bro and cousins love having him with them too. even the older ones like my parents and aunts and uncle praises him and ask me to be good to him. eh hello, he always bully me when you ppl are not around lorrrrrrr

sometimes i even think daddy loves baby more than he loves me. he listens to him more than me. trust him more too. yerrrr! unfair rightttt

alright enough of ranting. lol. i love every single bit of him and his stupidity especially. sometimes i wish i could just talk to him for the whole day. not doin anything else but just talk. tell him stories bout us and wat i want us to be and how much he mean to me.

best part bout us in this 11 months is tht we fight like a married couple, talk like best friends and we flirt like first loves. ahahha we flirt with each other really a lot. and we pamper each other like no other. we are so so soooo silly and manja when we're together. ehehe thts wat i love about us. (:

our promise, together forever

How i wish

2010-11-25T19:48:00.001+08:00

this is too damn true

When two stupid ones meet

2010-11-24T18:04:00.002+08:00

omg life is brilliant :D

say yay to baby's company this whole month

awesomeness, i tell you xDDDD

and baby keep pinching me arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

LOL

A brand new day

2010-11-15T09:22:00.002+08:00

yayyyy looking at baby's adorable look while he's asleep is just so much fun

and im so dead. i have not done any packing for myself yet.

and im leaving in less than 12 hours time. luckily i have baby to help me with it.

wokay im done talking bout him.

p.s. he's so cute im gonna dieeeee

2010-11-13T00:08:00.001+08:00

I'd wipe away all of your tears

2010-11-10T23:40:00.002+08:00

omgggg im so sleepy

but but hey, thinking of happy thoughts make me happy

i'll be having baby again tmr and and this weekend and off we go for a holiday

after all my exam stress and his assignments shits.. a sweet getaway, thts wat we both need :D

and i love pampering baby hehe

i just enjoy making him feel so so so loved (: massaging him and doin everything for him, thts wat i shall do now

he had done so so so much for me during my exam period and he even bought me sweets just in case i'll get stressed up

so so much of arguments in just within two weeks of my exam period and he give in to me all the time... awww... wat a patient boyfriend rightttt

im super duper lucky to have him (:

Decipher this, love one

2010-11-10T00:47:00.003+08:00

baby baby babyyyyyy!

listen to me ah

1) cannot so stresssss... not good not good. you'll get old very fast. i dunno how that relates but... yea. you get my point

2) please please please be good when im not with you. good as in, remember to drink enough water and take your meals and get enough of rest. if you fall sick too then who to take care of me worhhh =(

3) i srsly feel like eating satay now... bring me please. and and not only satay. i feel like eating chicken rice with roast duck and pork!!!!!!!

4) im very hungry now and just like wat you did a while ago, im googling images of food now and dang... im getting hungrier

5) imissbeingstupidwithyou

6) i dislike seeing you so stress while im so free now... i have nothing else to do now larh... i jealous leh. give me some stress please baby? haha xD

7) im feeling really cold now =/ where are your arms?

8) i hate my maid babyyyy.... she dunno how to clean my room. or wash my clothes =( my shirt from XS expanded to M... i dunno wth she did to it

9) i fucking miss you :DDDD

2010-11-10T00:40:00.000+08:00

omg you freaking stalker

231 pageview in a day is freaking creepy

okayy bye

You know i will

2010-11-06T23:32:00.003+08:00

you know i'll be here for you, always

i've been saying this sooo many times till i dunno if you still know how it feels like

do you still remember the first time i say this to you? whisper this to your ears... making you happy at the very first time i say it to you

the feeling and meaning behind these words... or have you been listening to it till you're so used to it from me?

but believe me baby... the love and warmth have never faded till this very day.

i'll be saying 'I Love You' to you for my entire life and these beautiful words will never lose its meaning...

remember that moment when you wanted me so so badly and wish tht im yours forever? think of tht

do not lose hold of tht feeling... thts wat tht makes me love you more and more as i think of our journey together all these while

Never ending story

2010-11-06T01:44:00.003+08:00

stupid dumb back bone paining now

and my ass is pain

i hate studying

i want my babyy to be here and hug me while i study

i want to be on his laps while i read my books

and and i want to use his body as my desk when im studying

i...miss him now

and he's stressing as well.... his stupid assignments =/ sighhh

seeing pretty things make me go 'awwww...' (:

Go ahead and make my day

2010-11-02T16:03:00.001+08:00

my cousin showed me this hahahaha :D

2010-11-01T21:14:00.003+08:00

i've said this tonnes of times and the truth is still there, 'never enough, wat i may learn from being with you'

you pulled me up during my darkest moments, you crushed my whole world when we argue, you get me back up on track again at the very next moment

you woke me up just now with a smile on your face and being able to hug you right when i wake up is the best feeling ever

it immediately reminds me of how we used to be

we were once so lovely, we were always there for each other. and despite these arguments, i came to realise tht nothing actually changes. nothing...

thou i may have gotten mad at you, ignored you for the whole night but den i realise tht i actually love you even more

it made me see tht i cant actually go on without you... you're more than just... a guy to me. i see you as something more than that.

perhaps, my life companion. if its not, we both might not make it tht night at all.

and im glad tht we're still holding on to each other so so tightly now. its almost impossible to actually get mad at you. it will only last for at most 24 hours and after tht, its all back to love again. you hit the soft spot in me, boyyyy

i love you too much thts why. and you love me tht much too right right right? say yes!

like wat i've always said and im still saying it again, 'you're mine, forever'

My friends in LA say hello

2010-11-01T20:40:00.002+08:00

kids are so pure... they really are

btw, ignore my random title. tht sentence keep playing in my mind now

Ahhhhhhhhh bus law, how i hate you

2010-11-01T20:05:00.006+08:00

plan to save money, failed

ish ish ish... nvm i'll start this week

no more shopping with the cousins! ooh btw, me likey tht red pumps i finally gotten from my elder cousin!!

and bus law raped me today, or so i heard from darren as well =(

damnnnnnnnn this is not a good feeling blehhhhhh

anyway, have you seen a 19 year old boy with this? im talking bout darren lau e-zern btw omgggggg

i cant stop laughing when i see him with these.... yea we went uni for bus law revision, on a sunday.

look at wat monash can do to us

a spongebob file

an elmo keyring attached to the bag

and a powerpuff sticker on his ipod

how childish slash cute right LOL

Together

2010-10-31T02:41:00.004+08:00

where has our love gone to?!

help me look for it again, baby

bit by bit, we'll build our love story again okay?

p.s. i've said to you once that i like this word, "Together"

Just an ordinary girl

2010-10-31T02:32:00.002+08:00

looking at your fb wall now, it make me feel like a total bitch

or perhaps, i am. im a sensitive bitch who only expects too much from you and is never satisfied with what you have given me

*big sigh* i dont want this to happen... its so not right not being loving with you

as you said, if we weren't arguing now, we would be flirting with each other like how we used to. oh my... we're so lovely, honestly

i just want our love back. ironic, i know. but i really cant make it without you.

you come home to me drunk tonight... you know i dislike you drinking and you have promised not to drink and you really did keep your words. till tonight

but im not mad. im worried. your friend texted me saying tht you drank too much and you're drunk. how am i gonna be alright knowing tht my love one is torturing himself

i dunno wat im talking. its like... im having split personality in me. i think i should go see a psychiatrist. im suspecting myself having psychological problems. like, seriously.

i hated myself last night. asking myself why cant i be good enough for you? why cant i be as perfect as other girls? why cant i be the one you will look at?

pathetic. but thts me. craving for your attention all the time. and this is driving me crazy. i can get depression soon i think

Oh fragile thing

2010-10-31T02:28:00.003+08:00

no more lovey dovey stuffs to write about

yea how nice... shit happens during my exam period

you let me fall right when i needed you most

thou im not mad at you anymore, but as you know

when a glass breaks, no matter how you patch it back, the scars are still there

you get wat i meant now right

but all i can say is, no matter wat, i still love you

and as i said, you'll be my last guy. cos i know i'll never believe another 'i love you' from a guy again

p.s. i cant survive a day without you... dont worry. i can never leave you. i dont wanna die

When enough is actually enough

2010-10-30T00:44:00.005+08:00

*thanks for the memories*

i just click the phone shut and thts it

no more nonsense

go ahead and make me cry again like how you used to

go ahead and get mad at me for doin and saying things to you tht you dont like

but you know wat? i dont care

i had enough of these

just when i thought tht you could be my only exception, just when im glad tht you are different from other guys i've known. you showed me tht you are just another one of them

you just had to... and thts it. no more next time. i wont get hurt by the same guy, twice

I wanna be stupid, with you!

2010-10-29T00:20:00.004+08:00

as i've always said, wherever you wanna go, just take me with you

it doesnt matter where

and and, i wanna do stupid things with baby after my exams!! stupid stuffs like... you know.... xD

i wanna be a kid once again and be as silly as ever with him!!!!

i keep telling myself to be patient, its just 10 more days and i'll get to be as free as ever with baby

i wanna do things i have never thought of doin. together with baby. stuffs like, cooking and cycling and swimming and and and manyyyy moreeeeeeeee

but first, back to books now -.-

p.s. he said i've always been doin stuffs, when told bout my 'do-stupid-stuff'' thought

Just like it

2010-10-26T21:38:00.001+08:00

my life, from 28th oct till 8th nov

like a roller coaster....woooohooooooo

Cats are fierce...wheee!

2010-10-25T23:13:00.001+08:00

i should be studying now but, hey look! SO CUTE!!

All i want is just......

2010-10-25T01:42:00.004+08:00

i constantly think tht im not good enough

i dont walk with confidence

my body isnt perfect

i cry over the smallest things sometimes

there are days tht i get through with forced smiles and fake laughs

sometimes i try to convince myself tht things are okay when they're not

im not beautiful

there are some nights tht i cry myself to sleep

im imperfect

but having someone amazing saying tht he loves me makes me feel tht im worth it

and im hoping tht you still need me like before

thts all im asking for

'my baby girl' i love the way you call me tht. do you still remember?

Its never enough

2010-10-25T01:38:00.003+08:00

shangshen wong is mad at me

shangshen wong is not feeling alright

shangshen wong is upset for the entire day alrdy

shangshen wong is very very stressed now

and guess wat i did? nothing.... sighhh

im the worst girl anyone would ever want to love

Once upon a time, they were so cute

2010-10-21T23:32:00.002+08:00

omgggggggggg my bros are so adorable!! in case you're wondering, my bro is the one in the pink jacket and the one in tht gray jacket.

yeap, both of them. shoooooooooo cute!!! the rest are my cousins.

fyi, tht stoopid girl who covers her face with tht love is my cousin. she's retarded... haha.

i found this pic in her room. she pinned it onto her wall. oh my so sweet right

For you, i will

2010-10-21T01:17:00.001+08:00

Thats the way you left me

2010-10-20T20:54:00.003+08:00

its never enough, wat i may learn from being with you

i know im not one of them and i tried seeing things like you. i dont speak camera and lens but still i tried to be supportive and show my interest

i dislike rock climbing and yet i tried to like it

i do not have interest in things tht excite you but still i want to learn to like it. i want to be with you whenever you do things tht you like.

haih i dunno wat im trying to mean here but im just so tired alrdy... jealousy, insecurity, fearing tht im not good enough

its building up in me as time passes and im getting depression soon alrdy. have you ever tried hiding yourself from the world and cry for a freaking whole 2 hours in monash? sometimes i dont even know why do i have to put myself through all these

i tried telling myself to care less, know less and perhaps, love less. den i'll be happier. and yet, here i am.

i finally tell you how i actually felt. whether you care or not, its secondary. i just feel so much better letting you know.

have you ever thought tht maybe, just maybe im actually not the one for you? all these are just... an illusion of our hearts.

Shoulda woulda coulda

2010-10-18T22:15:00.003+08:00

i wanna be there... protected

and living alone in my own perfect little world with no disturbances (:

p.s. my dumboo refuse to believe tht the word DOGNAP exist when i said tht i wanna dognap him. heheehee

Pure evilness

2010-10-18T22:10:00.004+08:00

say yay!

im sick

im having tons of bad dreams

im having exams soon

yayyyy im officially dying slowly

and my lovely boyfieee is not lovely. hmmph! he couldnt take care of me now. i wanna whack him when i see him!

okayy lar he came to take care of me during the day alrdy. i have to return him back to his family too right... cannot be so selfish xD

and i kissed him so much today hoping tht i'll make him sick too hehehhe ftw im so evil

I hate this part right here

2010-10-15T01:22:00.004+08:00

cramp cramp cramp

bitch =/ life as a girl sucks

and i cant conc on my studies now. thanks a lot mood swings!

ahhh wtv lar... its do or die, said weichuen.

back to studies now, ishhhh

Every girls' problem

2010-10-13T16:21:00.005+08:00

i've got too many clothes and yet.... i have nth more to wear out

i dont like repeating my clothes, fyi. ahhhh i wanna throw them away but mummy sure wont allow. there are so many dresses tht i bought and have not even wear and will not ever wear, i think.

i told my friend this and you know wat he said? go set up a stall in monash and sell your clothes in uni. hahaha he said tht this is very very common in monash australia. ppl setting up stalls randomly and selling off their clothes.

not bad eyh and plus, i need cash to buy new stuffs.... one thing tht i have been trying to search for is my beautiful red pumps.... i still cant find a nice one anywhere =(

Just be it

2010-10-12T23:17:00.003+08:00

just be yourself- it doesnt matter if its not good enough for someone else

btw, this is soooo cool! i wanna try this someday xD

p.s. i swear i have the most ........... boyfriend ever *heheheheeeee*

Annoying crap!

2010-10-10T00:53:00.004+08:00

yesterday amanda told me bout how simple and easy it is being a metropolitan student

it really made me think of goin there... and im having this thought again now

yes call me a failure, but i have this thought of quitting monash

i cant stand the pressure im facing

its like...... haih nvm no one understands it anyway

i have this urge of screaming at baby but den its just so unreasonable to do so

arghhhhhhhhhhhh damn

and i hate it when he's sick and refuse to sleep early

its making me worried and i cant be there to watch him

and there is someone who takes thing for granted

the previous acct assignment, i sent him my whole file... and this time he asks for it again

omgee i ignored his shamefuless SMS-es and blocked him in msn and he still dares to ask for it again for the x number of times a moment ago

go die lar you.... you're so so so sooooooo annoying btw. i look down on guys like you.

IMY girlsssss

2010-10-09T01:17:00.002+08:00

oh yes its true =(

btw, hello, you

if you're sexy and you know it clap your hands *to pamela and yin li*

:DDD

p.s. i swear my junior has the most beautiful hair ever! she's shirlyn from seafield btw, to guys who are interested LOL

if i love you, i have to trust you (:

2010-10-07T23:46:00.004+08:00

love = trust

something i know and was reminded about again last night

its so sad to see people breaking up cos of trust issues

trust tht he doesnt cheat on me

trust tht he really loves me and always will be

trust tht he will be there for me

trust tht he can be out with his guy friends and not come home being drunk

trust tht I dont have to worry bout him breaking up with me during each argument

trust tht he will stick up for me when my whole world is tumbling down

trust tht he will never fall in love with another girl

trust tht he wont get sick of me no matter how long we have been together

and lastly, trust tht he wants me like how I want him

2010-10-06T20:46:00.002+08:00

hello

i miss you!

byeeeeeee

talk to me....will you?

Because you are....

2010-10-03T23:30:00.003+08:00

who do you want standing next to you when all your dreams come true?

no doubt, its baby.

he came into my mind right after i see this question. without having any second thought

the reason, he has the warmest hands! hahaha okayy lar i know this is totally unrelated

but but..! his hands are really warm and nice to grab whenever im feeling cold

Psst psst...

2010-10-03T00:07:00.003+08:00

i'll do anything to be with you. and above all, never hurt you, lie to you, or leave you

im sucha good girl... so can i get a peck on my cheek now? xD

Listen to my heartbeat

2010-10-02T01:24:00.001+08:00

i know my posts have been emo lately but dont get me wrong.... its nothing related to my life

im just someone who loves writing emo stuffs (:

its so weird when ppl who reads my blog come up to me and ask, 'argue with bf again ah?'

lol nono thts not the way it is.... i just....enjoy writing emo phrases

Just as always

2010-09-28T22:57:00.002+08:00

im lonely. im tired of feeling weak. im tired of being alone. im tired of feeling invisible. im tired of shutting everyone out. im so sick of all this, a feeling like i have no where to go. a feeling i want to get over with. and yet, just like always, im alone.

2010-09-28T22:39:00.000+08:00

i hate skinny girls =/

He said, she said

2010-09-28T21:39:00.003+08:00

You know, the desperate ones. The ones where you love the person so much more than they love you. The ones where you chase after the other person with all of your heart. You wake up early to fix your hair a certain way, dress a certain way, make them their favorite meals. You constantly try to remain interesting and attractive and alluring. You feel yourself putting other things aside, ignoring important things to satisfy them. You know you’re pathetic. You know that they can leave you at any moment. Your entire life is filled with the insecurity of knowing that you love them more. They are everything.

There are those kind of relationships.

damn.......

Mental torture

2010-09-28T20:28:00.003+08:00

when no one is around to see her pain, she breaks down.

they say she's so strong but they've never seen her cry.

she's got everyone fooled

Can you feel the love?

2010-09-27T00:29:00.003+08:00

who has the best boyfriend ever??

definitely ME! (:

from stoopidity to good looks to crazy attitude, he has it all xD

We were meant to be

2010-09-26T23:52:00.002+08:00

you were meant to be the love of my life

my best friend, my soul mate, the one i can tell my dreams to

you were someone who find my presence worthwhile

when im lonely, i just have to remember that you're thinking of me

you might be busy at times

but still i know you never never never take me off your mind

and thts all that matters to me

Because he can

2010-09-26T23:32:00.004+08:00

yes yes people... we have been arguing last week... very very terribly, in fact

but in the end we still hold on to each other and work things out

no, we dont break up tht easily (:

he is tht one guy who can make me go, 'arghhh stoopid boy!' but at the very next instance, i'll go, 'stoopid girl, you know you love him so so so so much!'

he is just tht awesome. he can make me go oh-so-crazy admiring him and fall deeper and deeper each time i see him. yeapp seriously its true. he amazes me every single time. i dunno how but thts just the way it is.

maybe its the way he make me love him.. haha im addicted to his love and craves for his attention all the time. i know lar, LOA girlfriend. but then, who will not want attention from him ??

i know im crazy but i'll do anything... yea anything just to make him look at me and love me.

2010-09-23T23:28:00.002+08:00

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

whyyyyyy is this happening

you dont know how much i wish tht you would care for me once again

i dont want our relationship to end just like that..............

fhuieshgkjsniurghioshjfoksmshgisogjoisjfnusihgiosjivmisdghsiohgiojfiofnsgoi!!!

i wanna die now oh goshh

What irony

2010-09-23T01:27:00.003+08:00

no my life is no longer awesome

thanks to myself for ruining everything

thanks to you for not giving me a chance to patch things up

maybe people leave bcos they cant find anymore reason to stay

maybe, just maybe. you cant find anymore reason to be loving towards me

Bcos you're lovely, just like tht

2010-09-19T22:51:00.003+08:00

i think tht when you fall in love with someone, every single day you spend with them, you fall in love even more.

correct me if im wrong but there's just too many things about him for me to love.

his little little details like the way he sneezes, and the way his nose crinkles, the way he look when he's asleep next to me

oh so lovely (:

2010-09-17T01:39:00.002+08:00

gonna watch? lol yea tht chee zhen damn famous. right....

My doubt fades away when im kissing you

2010-09-15T23:49:00.003+08:00

i miss your hugs and how you held me tightly

when can i ever have tht again?

i havent seen you in like a million years lar and this feeling sucks

my cousins asked me today, where is shangshen? why so long didnt come edi?

wtf like i need to be reminded of tht

it has been a depressing week without you... and srsly.... i told you how much i need you like a million times too and yet..... nvm im not complaining (:

i understand, you're busy.... gahh if i say tht im alright with your absence, im lying

2010-09-15T01:11:00.002+08:00

pretty sure i said this heaps of times alrdy

'everything changes'

i miss our late night chatsss and laughters and random silliness and the way we stay up just to accompany each other

i want it all back... our loveliness

you, thts wat i want

For the better (:

2010-09-14T22:42:00.003+08:00

but i think tht everyone can change if the right person comes along

i'll stop complaining

stop ranting

alright baby?

anything tht will make you love me more, im more than willing to do

Maybe maybe maybe it will

2010-09-14T15:19:00.001+08:00

i just want to be your perfect little girl

gosh why is it so hard... why.?

i have been questioning myself this the whole entire day

i may be such a pain in the ass, i know

there are so many things i wish i could tell you, but i cant

im not sure if you would ever understand bcos i myself dont understand half of it

i want to be with you so bad and yet all i can do is sit here thinking of you being near me

thts how i spend my day, fyi

we've been arguing so often. its not your fault. it never is.

its me

and yet again, here i am.... wishing tht if i try hard enough, the person i want to be becomes the person i am

maybe, just maybe, it will

your perfect girl, thts wat i wanna be

A thousand words

2010-09-13T22:36:00.004+08:00

no i dont drink coffee
i dont smoke
but i do love you so very much

do you love me tht much.......?

2010-09-13T06:09:00.002+08:00

omgggg assignments are srsly killing me now =(

and and.... do i have the best boyfriend in the world or wat?

he's just so lovely!

Yet again....

2010-09-12T00:38:00.003+08:00

i know everyone has alrdy finish ranting and complaining about money and capital market assignment...its my turn now =/

my weekends are starting to be filled with assignments

and M & C assignment is such a nightmare... im clueless bout it.... dang

i want to cry but there's no one for me to cry to... i want to rant but no one understands this now. and those who understand, are busy rushing for this assignment right now =/

i wish assignments would rot and die right now

Pure envy

2010-09-11T22:24:00.002+08:00

she's so skinny so nice so delicious so yummy so urghhhh

sook ling said, if doin assignments can burn calories, we would all be a freaking stick now

i like wat she said! haha

It was and still is about you

2010-09-11T20:32:00.002+08:00

babyyyyyyyyyyyyy i've completed my assignment for the day and you're not home yet

yerr so unfair and i dunno wat else to do alrdy now =/

rotting and dying soon ahhhhh

you're more than just a boyfriend to me alrdy... you're like...my life now. i dunno bout you but im totally lost without you... just like today =(

you play too big a part in my life... something tells me tht no matter wat happen to us, whether we stay together or go our separate ways, neither one of us will forget the time we spent together.... i know i wont ever let this memory go =/

goodness! im starting to get emoooo... baby wont like it...right bi..?

hehe im not emo now fyi, this is called...missing someone too much (:

Bcos you're my man

2010-09-11T20:26:00.003+08:00

i wish you would be missing me the way i miss you now

i want you to remember the feel of my hair and the scent of my perfume i always wear

remember my laugh and giggles and how lovely our kisses are

and and and remember how silly both of us are when we're together

do you miss me like how i miss you? i hope you do (:

The love one

2010-09-11T20:20:00.002+08:00

the 8th post of the day and guess wats on my mind now?

you you you! shangshen wong! its you!

9 more days and we're together for 9 months !

mmmm... (: can you feel it? its all lovey dovey in my blog

Meet my new girlf !

2010-09-11T20:15:00.002+08:00

CheeZhen says : out of few hundred students in Money and Capital Market lecture, we got allocated to the same group in the morning session for the field trip to Bursa Malaysia

ChaiChyn says : er.. yay? hahahahha

and i got called an asshole bcos of tht... stoopid retarded girlfriend of mine xD

sinner, clubber, playboy, alcoholic...i ran out of words to call him. hence, he is my girlfriend now lol

I start to wonder why you're there not here

2010-09-11T19:55:00.002+08:00

oh noooooooo its 8 now

i've been waiting since 10 this morning

12 hours x 60 mins x 60 secs... do the maths

thts the amount of time i feel like dying lol

Im all about you

2010-09-11T15:29:00.003+08:00

its alrdy 4 pm and guess wat i did the entire day?

i woke up and i start missing you

i miss you again after missing you

took a nap while waiting for you

thought of you as soon as im awake

i start blogging bout you

as i talk bout you, i missed you even more

im missing you real lots now

and i guess i will be doin this till you come home... :D

Only for you

2010-09-11T15:26:00.002+08:00

if you can live forever, what do you live for?

definitely your love! (:

Maybe thts it

2010-09-11T15:19:00.002+08:00

denggg third post and im still not done talking bout you

if only i have the time, i would have alrdy written a book about you and us.

you're worth all my time anyway. maybe its the way you grab my hand and hold it so tightly or the way you kiss me or maybe its the way you let me put my arms around you.

maybe its the way you look at me and your silly smile tht shows your bunny teeth that makes me melt

maybe its bcos you dont compare me to anyone else

maybe thts it, tht makes me want you so much

and i know tht i really want you now! maybe by closing my eyes and think of you can bring us closer (:

In a world of lies, you are the truth

2010-09-11T15:13:00.004+08:00

heyy baby! as i said yesterday, you dont have to do like wat other guys did to impress me.

its not bout your DSLR or your climbing activity or anything tht guys would do to make a girl go 'oh-my-god'. im just attracted to you in some unexplainable way.

thts cos you're amazing just the way you are. really!

You're stoopid, enough said.. hehe

2010-09-11T15:11:00.003+08:00

shangshen wong is stoopid
shangshen wong is stoopid
shangshen wong is stoopid
shangshen wong is so so soooo stoopid x3

he asked me to update 10 posts in my blog and another 10 in his blog. thts my assignment for him today. LOL how silly of him right. but since im free now and he's not home to accompany me, so yea. im doin as he say.

anyway, i always listen to you right babyy..? xD

Ello Mello!

2010-09-10T21:53:00.003+08:00

had a real real real tiring day with baby and his friends

haha its tiring but enjoyable. anything, anytime, anywhere is fine with me. as long as its with the one i love most. its true

but but but.... im super afraid of muds, insects and and dirty toilets... omg thinking of it makes me wanna puke now :S

and guess wat? i have two assignments due next monday. fawesome xD

and oh, hi stalkers! 70 pageviews yesterday.

You're worth it

2010-09-10T00:34:00.005+08:00

there's a reason why two people come together and stay together; they both give each other something no one else can

remember this, you're worth every bit of my love (:

and btw, im supposed to be sleeping now. baby will be reaching my place at 5am later. yes, its 5am....oh no and im here. die die die if im tired later

baby will start lecturing me and scold me for being so.... stubborn

imma go take caffeine now xD

and and and, look at this. spot the resemblance! ahahahhahaha!!

You're all it takes

2010-09-09T23:26:00.003+08:00

this was when im in the midst of completing my business law assignment (:

This is for you, baby!

2010-09-08T22:12:00.003+08:00

you told me that you were nothing special when i told you how special you are to me this morning

well, no 'ordinary guy' would ever make me feel that loved; like im the only girl in the world that matters.

believe me baby, you are no 'ordinary guy'

Have you?

2010-09-08T17:33:00.006+08:00

Dear readers,

have you met my oh-so-retarded er wait. i was suppose to say super adorable boyfriend!

isnt he as cute as a cow? xD

just so you know, i love sneaking up wrapping my arms around you and start kissing your neck!

Think of me

2010-09-05T20:34:00.004+08:00

where are you???????

wherever you are.... please be back to me soon

weekends are no not nice without you

you're busy. im busy. we dont even have time for each other

at one point i even think if you enjoy your 'own time' with your friends rather than being with me....

think of me.... please promise you will

I need you! (:

2010-09-04T23:21:00.002+08:00

your texts always make my heart skip a beat

your texts make me nervous

bcos its all about our bus law assignment!

to my bus law partner, you are awesome! i would be so lost in this without you

and to be honest, i put really little effort into this assignment compared to you bcos its a group assignment whereas the rest of my assignments are individuals
thts why i abandoned this assignment and rely too much on you

haha! im soooo sorry but i'll do my part.

'im not the best but i'll try my best' heheheee!! does this sound familiar enough to you? :DDDDDD

Mental torture

2010-09-04T22:59:00.004+08:00

life in monash sucksss

aug 30th - financial accounting assignment deadline
sept 2nd - marketing test
sept 6th - marketing assignment deadline
sept 7th - business law assignment deadline
sept 13th - money and capital market + marketing assignment deadline

go die. im having emotional breakdown now

i dont know how long more can i stand this crap

I need cashhhhh

2010-09-03T22:45:00.004+08:00

yerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr i cant wait to spend money again

thank god sunday is near. which means, allowance time! yay

99 bucks for tht MNG top
99 bucks for tht cotton on's skinny jeans
69 bucks for wedges from cotton on
149 bucks for high waisted pants from miss selfridge

so gonna get those stuffs next week (:

and and i emo.... i havent find any beautiful red pumps anywhere.... plus i have tht urge to buy bags all the time

guess i have to delay my bag and dress to the following week edi ):

SAD.....

When you tell me that you love me

2010-08-31T23:00:00.006+08:00

im shining like a candle in the dark, when you tell me that you love me

they said, find a heart that will love you at your worst and arms that will hold you at your weakest

and i did! baby love me when there is practically nothing much about me to be loved and he made me believe in myself when im falling apart

Hellooooo!

2010-08-31T22:25:00.002+08:00

woahhhh stalkers

2378 views in 3 months

793 views in a month

i thought that only baby will read my blog cos its all about us only

anyway, to all strangers who stumble upon my blog, hello (:

She's so selfish im gonna die

2010-08-31T21:55:00.002+08:00

hahahah i was talking to estee bout someone now.... and i LOL at the things we talk about

so there's a singaporean girl in my marketing class. super selfish. asked her bout the marketing test's tips and she gave all sorts of reasons like...i didnt mark it down, i left my notes at home and bla bla

as if like by helping someone else, you'll get stupider -.-

she keeps all her knowledge to herself and yet her marketing weekly assignment couldnt be any better than ours. ha ha ha. sorry, i just hate her a lil too much

and wat made me go O.O is tht she dont even know that i was talking bout her in fb the other day and she stupidly 'like' tht status tht is meant for her. how ironic (:

or maybe she enjoy being talked about? haha some girls are just weird. since you likes it so yea... here i am giving you more attention xD happy?

2010-08-31T17:41:00.001+08:00

i am beautiful
i am beautiful
i am beautiful

i lied to myself

Ding dong!

2010-08-28T21:00:00.002+08:00

just a little reminder for you....

im always yours and nothing is gonna change the fact. loving you is just simply the best part of life.

i miss you !!!

FML

2010-08-24T23:36:00.002+08:00

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I SO WANNA SCREAM RIGHT NOW

IM SO FUCKING PISSED AT SOMEONE

AND IM MAD AT MYSELF.......I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED ONE OF THE FILE THAT I NEED FROM MY PEN DRIVE. FUCKKK!!

IM PMS-ING RIGHT NOWWWWWWWWWW AND THE BF IS HAVING MOOD SWING TOO

IM SO SO SO SO STRESSED OUT FOR ASSIGNMENTS AND TESTS

I NEED TO RUN AWAY RIGHT NOW TO A PLACE WHERE I DONT HAVE TO FACE ANYONE OR ANYTHING

And we continue counting on..... (:

2010-08-21T02:04:00.003+08:00

have i mentioned how much i love his bunny teeth? he is soooo adorable..!

baby baby baby..... its been 8 months (:

8 months of you tolerating me and making me feel like a princess.

as i have always said, you're alrdy a big part of my life. in fact, you are my life.

when you're around someone for so long tht they become a part of you, when they change or got away, you become lost and you dont know who you are without them. this is becoming true to me.

we'll always be together right baby? because honestly.... i dont know where i'd be without you

and the truth is, im always feeling afraid. i've never never never felt so drawn to any guy before. so much tht its impossible to keep my distance.

and im scared tht you dont feel the same way. you wont need me as much as i do need you. truth be told, im a little too attached to you alrdy. its like..... no one else matters anymore. you're all i need to care for

i want you to keep your promise to love me forever and tht you wont need any other girls alright?

Ugly yet....... thts wat i want

2010-08-21T01:30:00.001+08:00

i know this is unhealthy but i want my body to be this way (:

Baby, this is for you

2010-08-18T16:59:00.004+08:00

200th post (:

damn, im fast. unlike someone else who has his blog so much longer before me but still havent reach 200 posts yet. hahahaha yes im talking bout my boyfriend aka the world lousiest blogger

my whole blog is about tht boyfriend of mine only. it seems like everyday he is the only thing i wanna talk about. the only person i have in mind. the only one who make me go so excited as i type posts about him. haha! he is amazing just like tht (:

its 18th today and two more days would be the day we're officially 8 months together. time flies when we're having so much fun together, no?

baby, you have been a wonderful boyfriend throughout all these while. i love you because you understand me. even at the times when i dont make any sense at all. you still do understand me.

you should know tht i would give my life up to be with you, and above all, never hurt you, lie to you, or leave you. this i promise.

p.s. life's good when there's a someone for you no matter wat. and you're my someone

You're all that matters

2010-08-17T12:32:00.002+08:00

laying there with your arms around me, i felt so comfortable and safe.

you wrapped your arms around me, pressing your body against mine

in tht moment of perfection, i knew we were meant to be as we whisper 'forever' to each other

'with you in my arms, nothing else can interfere', you once said this. do you still remember?

每個女孩身邊都有一個不是男朋友的男朋友

2010-08-15T22:59:00.003+08:00

nick said, stop being sad and awesome you shall be! (:
thanks for staying up thou aussie time is 2 hrs earlier. zomg sorry for keeping you awake the whole night long.

kevin said, from me. for you. he dedicated a song called 'For Good' to me to make me feel better
listen to the words, he said.
its beautiful, i said (:

sam said, found this for you. its so very sweet <3

indeed it is, just watch

You're worth the pain

2010-08-15T17:07:00.003+08:00

philophobia - fear of being in love

he made this mess. he made me stop trusting people. i know its unfair to you. but you're the one suffering from the after-effects of it and all my insecurities

but you never fail to make an effort to assure me with your love. thank you! (:

No regrets, just love!

2010-08-15T01:44:00.004+08:00

do you ever get tht feeling where you dont want to talk to anybody? you dont want to smile and you dont want to fake being happy but at the same time you dont know exactly wats wrong either.

there isnt a way to explain it to someone who dont understand or dont show tht he is interested in knowing. he has stop being comforting and all you wanted was to be alone

at least when you're alone no one constantly ask you wats wrong and ask if you're alright thou knowing tht you're not

p.s. just another rant and i really wish you could know why am i upset. but i dont think you ever will. sometimes i wonder if......

p.p.s. i dislike ranting like this because i know you dislike it too. it makes you think that im demanding and unreasonable

p.p.p.s. you know that im not feeling alright now. im upset over something. and i cant go to bed this way. but you just let it be. is telling me tht you love me and everything will be alright such a difficult thing to do?

p.p.p.p.s. i have to stop this p.s. thing.

watever it is, goodnight.

Do you believe in life after love? :D

2010-08-13T15:18:00.003+08:00

have you ever felt like you have finally say everything you wanna say to your boyfriend?

thts how im feeling right now.... so wheeeeeee (:

i wrote him a whole long list of things i wanna tell him so badly in his blog. i dare not face him and tell him. hence, his blog is where i rant to.

In the night

2010-08-13T10:06:00.004+08:00

MIB, one of the best band i've ever seen. they put up a show better than MPO (:

in the night, i hear them talk. the coldest story ever told.

once upon a time, i was living in delusion. refuse to believe that i have to grow up someday

today, i finally see it. and its better not to know too many things as people always say, 'ignorance is bliss'

im so tired and exhausted of restless nights. he dont like it. i dont like it. jealousy only create a bigger gap between us.

how i wish i could be like any other girls. not minding their boyfriend befriending girls, chatting away with girls and not get insecure so easily.

forget yesterday, eat more, play harder, live happily xD

fat people are happy people.... be fat and i'll be your beat friend. i like fat people hehehe

Because you're worth it

2010-08-04T18:59:00.002+08:00

fergie said, fairytales dont always have a happy ending, do they?

it felt like im living in a fantasy world where everything seem oh-so-perfect (:

so many people dislike fairytales or choose to think that its not realistic and yet, being the little girl in me, im still naive.

fairytales made us believe in love, believe that a prince will be there to save us when something goes wrong. lalala blame all those disney princesses movies. they gave me this thought where everything is perfect when your prince is around

and true enough, everything is always so sweet when tht boyfriend of mine is with me.

he's my only one. he's mine since the past 7 months and 15 days ago. last night i was telling him how much i would do for him and how deep i have fallen for him.

but guess wat? he bombard me by saying, "do you say this to anyone else?" haiyorhhhh

and last night, when i was about to sleep, wei shan texted me, "hey suddenly go through your blog and seriously i have no idea you are so in love till i saw your blog. this time really is crazy in love with him" and she also said that she thought this would be just one of my short term relationship

but haha, its different this time i guess xD

baby changed me, a difference tht changes our life forever